My last teen years..

Assalamulaikum and hi everyone.. or anyone? Haha..

Today i am a bit excited to update this post because today is officially my 19th birthday. Yahooo!! Haha ok i felt so old right now. My last teen will be over in exactly 11 month 21 days more xD

On 9th January 1998 is the day I was born. My mom had delivered me by cutting her stomach. Yes i was not born in the normal way. I am her first child that she had to delivered me by operation. And the meaning behind the date is my mom's birthday date is on 19th Jan. So she picked that date to matchy matchy with her date. haha it was so cute of her.

However, on 9th January 2017, the 19th birthday of me was born. My first year of me celebrate it without my family and siblings. I felt kinda strange. It felt i was sooooooo damn old. haha it may sound weird but i do feel that way.

Cut it short, last night which is on 8th Jan 16, as i was just finished my group meeting on 11.30 pm. No one was in the room. All of my roomates were not in the room. They were sooo busy doing their group assignment also. So, after playing with my phone for about 10 minutes i took my shower. And then after i finished my shower. I continued to do my drawing group assignment then. After 10 or 15 minutes or so, they already came back home. And by that time it was already 11.50 something. I was ignoring them for awhile until it was almost 12 am. And by that time  my mom had called me and wished me a happy birthday.

I cried. Legit like a cry baby i cried af. After all those wishes and conversation. I hang up the call.
And the i told them ...
"eh guys, today is my birthday!" with a big smile on my face. which the already know by then.

And guys, you know what they ignored me. Freaking ignored me. And the i act with sympathy and said
"sampai hati korang ennn ( how could you guys)"
And then again, my ex roomate, Zurin called me. She said, Ainin, your friend came to see you here. As i was turned back, no one was in the room. I was alone. By this time ok i did felt kinda strange.
Where have they been? As i was walked out of the room. They surprised me by throwing a snow spray and shot me with a bottle of water.  I was so shocked and very thank to them. Enough with the roomates.

At 1.20 am, one of my classmate, called me using my another classmate's phone. At first, he didn't said anything. And then when i told him "What do you want?" Suddenly, he sang me a birthday song. Seriously i was so touched. It was so nice of him. Thank you :)

The next day, on 9th Jan 2017.

So what happened today was....... as usual my English class start at 8 a.m every Monday. After the class finished i was cleaning my stuff on my tables. Apparently one of my friend suddenly called Madam and said

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" Madam, i want to tell you something. Actually today is Ainin's birthday" He said.
I was so shocked when i heard that. My heart was about to explode in a second by that time. And i was kinda shy actually. And then my another friend started to sing the most iconic song ever on a birthday. So to him, Thank you :)

Lol haha.

I think thats all this update post. Thank you for reading! :)

Kehidupan di Seri Iskandar, Perak (Part 2)

Assalamualaikum and hi! Wew sejak ada class gap hari Isnin makin aktif juga aku nak update blog ntah pape aku ni hehe.

So kalau korang dah baca entry sebelum ni, aku nak sambung cerita aku lah ye. Hm where did I stop?

Oh ya, my last point was promoting my uni. hahahaha lol. 

This entry I wanna share my daily life at UiTM SI. Phew nak start dari mana ni. Kahkah poyo gila.

Ok, macam biasalah setiap pagi lepas Subuh aku siap2 nak kelas. Oh before that, aku punya kelas Isnin sampai Khamis je so hari Jumaat aku tak ada kelas. Yeayyyy hehe, Keempat-empat hari tu kelas aku semua pagi. Well, part 1 baru en. Ada sorang senior ni, masa kat PI waktu nak tunggu solat Isyak masa bulan Ramadhan, dia tanya aku part apa, course apa semua, Pastu dia tanya aku kelas selalu pukul berapa? Aku jawab ah tiap kelas aku pagi. Pastu dia jawab ish2, tak best tak best. 

"Hahahaha"  Ni je aku mampu balas. Dalam hati aku dah nama pun part 1 en. Terima je lah kelas awal pagi kul 8. ^^ Tapi aku rasa sebab musabab nya part 1 ni kelas pagi yang aku rasa2 lah sebab baru masuk u kan, aku rasa diaorang macam train budak2 disiplin pergi ke kelas, Kalau budak2 yang selalu lewat ke kelas, atau terlajak tidur sampai tak pergi kelas. Macam mana diaorang nak survive lagi part-part lain nanti kan? Baru part 1 dah tak gi kelas semua. So nasihat aku kat sini, kalau kau rasa kau dah masuk Universiti especially UITM boleh tak pergi kelas macam kau tak pergi sekolah. Silap lah brader sisturr sekalian. My advice is kalau kau anak yang from silver golden spoon. Better kau pergi swasta je. Sebab UiTM ni sebuah universiti yang konvensional. Kita memang kena pergi ke kelas. Kalau tak pergi nanti kena buang. So to those yang anak manja ke anak kerabat ke tak boleh lah ye suka suka hati kau je taknak pergi kelas semua. Menyusahkan banyak pihak act.

Wau panjang pula ulasan aku pasal kelas ni. Hehe. Ok next, since my class 4 hari sahaja, of course korang semua dapat teka kan. Teka apa? Teka lah yang kelas aku memang pack. Lol bagus lah aku tanya aku jawab. Apa seh dah merepek ni. Yep. Kelas aku pack kecuali Isnin. Haha memang aku paling suka ah hari Isnin. Dulu time sekolah hari Isnin lah hari yang paling errrr. Tapi sekarang ni lain pula. Betullah orang dulu-dulu kata, jangan benci-benci sangat, lama-lama nanti jatuh sayang. Awhh apa kena mengena pun aku tak tahu. xD Kelas Isnin aku sampai tengahari je. Tu yang aku suka hehe. Selalunya petang tu aku akan basuh baju. Part basuh baju ni pun aku suka gak sebabbbb mesin basuh mesti kosong. Tu yang suka haha tak payah nak kena queue. Mostly orang lain basuh baju hari Jumaat, Sabtu and Ahad. Paling penuh hari Ahad ah. Memang tak dapat can lansung. Lagi aku aras paling atas,

 

Ok sampai sini sahaja entry ku kali ni huhu. Boring en. Biarlah nanti bila aku dah kahwin dah ada anak nanti aku nak baca balik kisah liku-liku aku di universiti. hahaha poyo nya lah. 

Till next time fella! xo 

Kehidupan di Seri Iskandar, Perak

Assalamualikum and Hi!

Err melihat daripada tajuk pun rasa bosan nak baca kan? Haha. Hm. Time is gold. So aku dalam library lepak sorang kat bilik IT. Geng lain semua kat bawah tengah borak so aku nak hapdet lah blog kasayangan aku ni. Hehehe.

So far alhamdulillah kehidupan aku di sini. Eh aku tak bagitahu lagikan yang aku dapat lanjutkan pengajian aku di UiTM SERI ISKANDAR, PERAK. Aku bersyukur dapat UiTM ni. Biarlah orang nak kata apa, janji aku dapat further study. Even tak jauh mana pun? Phew.

My first day was a little bit challenging since it was the first day of Ramadhan this year. Rasa macam penat lah jugak sebab baru nak adapt dengan environment of uni kan. Harhar. Tapi itu bukan penghalang. Cuma aku lemau jugaklah petang tu. Jadual aku agak pack sebab aku tak ada kelas hari Jumaat. Yeayyyy best kan? Haha tahu2. Kiranya aku free 3 hari dalam seminggu. Eh aku lupa nak bagitahu yang aku dapat kos apa kat sini. Hehe

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My course is Diploma in Building! Yeap aku dapat kos bangunan. Aku dah tergolong dalam dak dak Builders gitu. :D To be honest lah, kos ni memang aku ada pilih tapi rank yang kedua terakhir dalam pilihan. Aku sebenarnya nak kos banking. Tapi tak mengapa, Aku dah redha dah dengan segala yang diatur olehNya :)

Kampus Seri Iskandar ni ada dua fakulti which are FSPU and FSSR. Wau apa tu?
haaaa FSPU ialah fakulti seni bina perancangan dan ukur. FSSR pula faculty of art and design. Tetiba  in english pula kehkeh aku lupa dalam bm apa maksud dia lol.

Basically fspu ni macam bidang-bidang under arkitek lah. Aku bagi contoh arkitek sebab arkitek ni mostly profession yang orang tahu dan kenal. Course aku ni kiranya macam buat bangunan. Jadinya aku punya fakulti under FSPU. Meanwhile, FSSR ni based on dia punya takrif tu pun dah dapat hint kan? FSSR ni tentang art, fashion, photography and etc.

Anyone who is interested dengan bidang bidang ni boleh lah apply dekat sini after  your spm's result nanti ok? Hehe. For more any information, you guys can google je uitm seri iskandar, perak. Lagi details lah wa cakap sama lu haha. Macam promote gituw ^^

Hm i think thats all for now. Ini pun gap masa antara next class. Nanti i'll update the 2.0 post insyaAllah dalam masa terdekat yang aku free. Hahaha.


Eh btw, aku ada jumpa sorang senior ni, muka dia remind me of someone yang aku pernah tersuka dulu. Haha! What a fate (coincidence) :p

Till next time. See ya! xo

Freedom? Nah

Assalamulaikum. So here we go. Im back. Yeah yeah i know theres no reader in my blog but who cares? kahkahkah.

I already finished my spm. Yup finally. Weeeee �������� the day i finished my spm on 30 Nov 2015, Monday my biology paper, i felt so happy and sad. sayyy what?? Yup the feelings that i am no longer have to go to school onwards. Haha ntah pape je but im just being afraid of what im gonna do after this. Being terrified of doing nothing. Even that is actually things that im good at it. Haha lol.

Hm. To be honest, i already applied to my part time job at nearby mall. And im still waiting for their calls. Phew. I dont want to believe this but this is real man. I already finished my high school. This is totally unbelievable! I am no longer have to wear that uniform again. Well if i decided to not continue with form 6 then.

Gosh that is another thing. I dont even know where am i gonna go after this. I mean i dont decide which or where university i wanna go. Well i do have my own list but. damn i dont know man. Its hard. Really hard and confuse.

Its like u wanted to go or u wanted something but u just feel that u are not capable of. Not qualified. Dont deserved to be there. To obtain that.

Nah im just gonna let time do its job. what else i wanna to talk about. Hmm. I think thats it for now. Till next time. Toodles! ��

Dear you.. only love can hurt like this.

Assalamualaikum dan selamat petang. Buat sesiapa sahaja. Memang blog aku ni tak ada siapa yang baca. Cuma aku lagi senang begini. Hanya mahu luahkan shaja isi hati. Kadang aku tertanya apa tujuannya kalau tak nak orang baca? Baik tulis dalam diari. Well aku takut diari aku hilang apa ke. Aku nak ada kenangan bila aku tua nanti. People said that memories never fade. But not for me since im a forgetful person. Like seriously. 

I am already 16 y/o. Hm sungguh tak sangka. Aku masih terngiang ngiang lagi kali pertama aku masuk ke sekolah. Dengan tudung tak nampak dahi. Kini aku dah semakin membesar dan matang. Alhamdulillah cuma dugaan kian bertambah. Cinta? Aku tak pernah rasa bercinta. Tapi aku seakan tahu bagaimana perasaannya bercinta. Mungkin sekali aku hanya aku berangan. Yup. Berangan. Pendedahan terlampau banyak dengan novel mungkin jadi.Dengan persekitaran sekeliling aku. Cuma apa yang aku pasti aku memang suka akan seseorang ini. He's my schoolmates since standard 5. And my classmates since standard 6. Hahahaha but the feeling came since form 3. But the feeling becomes stronger this year. 

He's just hm. He acts kinda weird towards me. Ahh i  dont want to syok sendiri or what.But  I can feel it.The difference he act to me this year than last year. Oh please. Help me. Help me throw away this freaking damn feelings. I really dont want this feelings. I dont want to be hurt cz i know its gonna be real hurt. Only love can hurt like this. Aku tak rela untuk penolakan. Someone said to me that u will not know the result if dont try. Yup i agreed. But but... 

im afraid. Afraid that im the only one who is liking him. The more i'll try to forget him, the more i suffered. Its hard you know. 

I'll tell myself that i will not care that much. I will ignore him on the next day. Im not gonna talk to him. Im not ever gonna start talk to him. But well. Thats not happen. Hes the one who talk to me first. Hes the one who make me talk to him. Ergh if only i can change place. I dont want to be near to him. I don want to see his face. But its the strange feelings came when im not looking for 1 day. This freaking head always wanted to look left. 

Wahai hati. Bersabarlah. Love is torture! 

Kealpaanku..

Bagai terasa diri ini begitu kotor. Terbiar bebas bagai burung mendapat kebebasan. Terbang tinggi ke atas hingga lupa akan di bawah. Terlalu bebas kelakuanku ini. Bercakap bertentang mata dengan bukan ajnabiku. Berjalan berdua seiring bahu dengan rakan-rakan lelaki aku. Allah.. jagalah batas-batas ku sebagai muslimat yang baik Ya Allah. Peliharalah tingkah laku ku Ya Allah. Impian aku untuk menjadi seorang Hawa yang suci segala-galanya.

Suci dan buta daripada melihat perkara haram...
Suci dan pekak daripada mendengar perkara haram...
Suci dan bisu daripada membicarakan perkara haram...

Kerana karma dunia ini apabila kita baik. Maka pasangan kita juga baik.
Jika kita buruk tingkah lakunya, maka buruk jugalah pasangan hidup kita.
Aku mahu pasangan hidup yang dapat membimbingkan tangan aku bersamanya ke jalan yang diRedhai oleh Allah swt.
Mendidik anak-anak aku dengan ilmu yang diperoleh.

Bila mendengar dan melihat ada makhluk Allah di muka bumi  ini yang begitu menjaga tata tuturnya. Penglihatannya terbatas. Tingkah laku yang teramat sopan. Indah sekali fenomena ini.. Aku teringin sekali menjadi seperti mereka. Apatah lagi apabila rakan kita sendiri telah berhijrah kepada ke arah itu. Aku rasa sangat tercabar dalam diam. Soalan itu terus menerpa dek fikiran ku. "Mengapa aku tidak berganjak lagi? Kenapa dia boleh, aku tidak? Bila lagi masanya?" Dan pelbagai lagi..

Aku teriak dan menangis dalam seribu kebisuan. Ya Allah Ya Rabb.. Bantulah hambaMu ini..

ASSALAM.

Sedang merinduimu wahai sahabat.  :'(

p/s : Doakan kelulusan aku dalam ujian berkomputer kesen memandu minggu ini..

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