Dear you.. only love can hurt like this.

Assalamualaikum dan selamat petang. Buat sesiapa sahaja. Memang blog aku ni tak ada siapa yang baca. Cuma aku lagi senang begini. Hanya mahu luahkan shaja isi hati. Kadang aku tertanya apa tujuannya kalau tak nak orang baca? Baik tulis dalam diari. Well aku takut diari aku hilang apa ke. Aku nak ada kenangan bila aku tua nanti. People said that memories never fade. But not for me since im a forgetful person. Like seriously. 

I am already 16 y/o. Hm sungguh tak sangka. Aku masih terngiang ngiang lagi kali pertama aku masuk ke sekolah. Dengan tudung tak nampak dahi. Kini aku dah semakin membesar dan matang. Alhamdulillah cuma dugaan kian bertambah. Cinta? Aku tak pernah rasa bercinta. Tapi aku seakan tahu bagaimana perasaannya bercinta. Mungkin sekali aku hanya aku berangan. Yup. Berangan. Pendedahan terlampau banyak dengan novel mungkin jadi.Dengan persekitaran sekeliling aku. Cuma apa yang aku pasti aku memang suka akan seseorang ini. He's my schoolmates since standard 5. And my classmates since standard 6. Hahahaha but the feeling came since form 3. But the feeling becomes stronger this year. 

He's just hm. He acts kinda weird towards me. Ahh i  dont want to syok sendiri or what.But  I can feel it.The difference he act to me this year than last year. Oh please. Help me. Help me throw away this freaking damn feelings. I really dont want this feelings. I dont want to be hurt cz i know its gonna be real hurt. Only love can hurt like this. Aku tak rela untuk penolakan. Someone said to me that u will not know the result if dont try. Yup i agreed. But but... 

im afraid. Afraid that im the only one who is liking him. The more i'll try to forget him, the more i suffered. Its hard you know. 

I'll tell myself that i will not care that much. I will ignore him on the next day. Im not gonna talk to him. Im not ever gonna start talk to him. But well. Thats not happen. Hes the one who talk to me first. Hes the one who make me talk to him. Ergh if only i can change place. I dont want to be near to him. I don want to see his face. But its the strange feelings came when im not looking for 1 day. This freaking head always wanted to look left. 

Wahai hati. Bersabarlah. Love is torture!