Honeymoon Year?

ASSALAMUALAIKUM AND HI! Yeah. Phewww. Its been quite a long time from my last update. Hm busy? Kahkah. I think so. And not in the mood to update. Im in a good of health. Sadly still hopping for my boarding school 2nd intake. But at the same time i dont want to leave my currently school right now bcs i hv loadsssss of position in school. It such a waste. It is not guarantee to get or to be honest i cant get those from my boarding school. Hm...

But lately. This past 2 weeks i feel very alone and lonely. Dalam kelas meja disusun dengan 3 meja satu baris. And bila dah 3 orang aku rasa macam tak diperlukan. When they are having their conversation, im just sitting next to them and dengar je lah kan. They are used to be just both of them bcs last year memang macam tu. Duduk berdua. Since kelas tu pack yang teramat so jadilah bertiga. Kalau diikutkan pun kita jangan berjalan, or berborak bertiga.Nanti orang ketiga mesti terpinggir punya. And im always be the third person. SEDIH bila kita tak ada kawan dekat sekolah. The real friend. Maksudnya kawan berdua ni. Ada tapi dah berhijrah. Hm enough i think about this sad confession of me.

Next we go to the..... eceh macam ada orang baca je kan. Kah kah who cares? It just i wanna type tonite. Kekeke. Hm seriously who is the first one that create the famous all time favorite quote " Form 4 is honeymoon year!" Duh for real dude? Come on. Aku rasa macam dh separuh nafas je ni. Ni baru bulan February tau. DONT MENTION ABOUT HOMEWORK LAH KAN. Everyday ada. And B.A.N.Y.A.K.G.I.L.A Sigh..... New chapter for us. And i think im gonna fail my March test. Serious.
And i know my ability. My level. I desperately need support. I have to go to tuition no matter how. Bcs i cant depend all from school. Its hard to find home tuition for secondary upper form at my house area. I dont like tuition center bcs it just the same as class. Not the way they teach but the students. if u know what i mean. Inform to me if theres home tuition around my area ok? Putra Heights. Hahaha.

Just a minute ago, i found this on my Tumblr. And felt something when i saw the number 1. Aku baca dalam hati Takbiratul Ihram aku. Dan Alhamdulillah bukan menunjuk tapi yang lain mmg aku baca kuat sedikit. Aku rasa macam YA ALLAH. SOLAT AKU TAK SEMPURNA LAGI. Masih banyak cacat celanya. Dan seingat aku waktu aku mendengar tazkirah di surau. Ayat ni membuatkan hampir mengalir air mata. Jangan ingat kita dah lega bila dah selesai solat. Jangan berpuas hati kerana belum tentu solat kita ini diterima. Terdetik sedikit pun perasaan riak bongkak menunjuk. Habis amalan yang kita lakukan. Sia sia sahaja. Penat yang kita dapat. Same goes to our deeds. Diterima ke amal baik yang kita lakukan ni? SubhanaAllah.. Tiada lagi guna hidup kalau hilang redhaNya.

Missing u Aliah Samsuri :'(

p/s : Selagi masih bertuhan, selagi itu aku bertahan.
       Memang. Memang ada kalanya rasa mahu menjerit beritahu kepada dunia yang kau sangat tak adil
       kpd aku hamba yang serba hina ini.
       Tapi bukan aku yang mengadili semua itu.
       Dia yang Satu. ;)